Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
I am weak, I make bad decisions, I am constantly failing and yet God still loves me. Even though I struggle, he still chooses me to lead a small group of girls and allows me to serve in an amazing church. Even though I have a temper, He still blesses me with amazing friends. Even though I lose my battle with sin daily, He gave me the most amazing family that I could never fully deserve. Even though I fail daily He shows me grace. What an amazing God!
The verse above kept running through my mind as I lay in bed the past few days fighting a bad allergic reaction to something I ate. There’s not much you can do laying in a bed while in horrible pain, except maybe talk to God. My first reaction was to be angry, because of being so sick I missed out on time with my small group girls, I couldn’t play with my kids or even help my husband with the many every day tasks that need to get done around our house. I hate feeling useless. I’m a doer, and being told I can’t do anything is one of the worst things in the world.
But that verse kept coming back “…my grace is all you need. My power works BEST in weakness.” So instead of getting mad I started praying. Praying for the people I love, praying for my amazing co leader who took on teaching this week. I wrote texts to friends who needed encouragement, and I thanked God for slowing me down and allowing me to have a break. I’m not good at taking breaks, typically I’m go go go until God slows me down. So it was a weird feeling to say to God, “thank you for putting me in this bed, thank you for giving me a break.” Was I really thanking God for a body covered in a burning rash? Was I really thanking Him for throbbing pain? It must be all the meds I’m on right? Nope, I really am thanking God for this experience.
Being weak before God is the only way His power can be made perfect. Sometime we forget how much we need Jesus, how truly we can’t live with out Him. It takes moments of brokenness for us to lean into His grace. I love how God can turn everything into something beautiful. I’m still in bed itching my skin off, but I’m experiencing something special with my Savior, comfort… comfort I wouldn’t be able to feel unless I slowed down and let Him hold me.
Don’t wait until you’re laid up in bed from illness to let God embrace you. Stop daily to be comforted, loved and cherished by your heavenly father. Because in our weakness, His power thrives! Below is a song that I’ve been singing in my head over and over the past few days. Take a listen, get encouraged.
Thank you all for your sweet prayers, texts, messages and comment. You’re encouragement and love is deeply cherished!